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25 August 2012

...Hurdles Got In The Way!

Funny how you cruise along life and basically life goes along okay even with some of the minor bumps that life offers. I would manage to get over those bumps pretty good and if I fell, I'd just dust the dirt off my knees. Since I last made the previous post, I ran into many hard hurdles! Many of them really hurt me emotionally! Ouch! Without going into details of those hurdles, I have been falling flat on my face and bruising my knees with scrapes of tough changes in life.

I have become a care-giver for someone who I love dearly.

So frustrating!
...for her

So over whelmed!
...for me

So full of uncertainties!
...for her
...for me

I went back to church last Sunday. It had been too long and it was time to come "home" again. I am reminded that my life matters too and I can "do" this.

Slowly, I am regaining myself back.
...for me
...for her

Slowly, I am getting back to joy.
...for me
...for her

A nudge sent me into the kitchen. No excuses, all the ingredients were there. It was time again. Bake something!

I measured. 

I mixed. 

I added. 

I whisked. 

I stirred. 

I rolled. 

I flattened. 

I baked. 

I waited. 

I rolled, flattened, baked and waited again. 

One more time.

Peanut-butter cookies! Therapeutic! Yumminess! (I know that is not a word but it should be!)

Then I strolled. 

I watched. 

I gazed. 

I clicked. 

I clicked. 

I awed. 

I clicked. 

I breathed.


Then I remembered.

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints.
Other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life
When I was suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord, "You promised me, Lord,
That if I followed you, you would walk with me always.
But I noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
There have only been one set of prints in the sand.
Why, When I have needed you most, you have not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have seen only one set of footprints
Is when I carried you."